Why it never got to be us. again. and again. and. again.

• You kept me waiting for you to settle your business with another girl. And you come back with another fucking girl.
• You keep my hopes up.
• Never seem to understand what I want after all the years.
• You come back when you need me.
• You always kiss me. You find ways to kiss me. WHEN YOU wanted to kiss me.
• I can't trust you, you fail at every test each time you profess your love to me.
• You seem shit.
• You hide your feelings. When it's about me, and even it's something you came to talk for.
• You friendzone me when you clearly still like me. AND you hide it from me you idiot. And I'm hiding it from you too, idiot :)
• We're good together. We're so good together that other people might die of how perfect we are. Together.
• Even when we are not together, it's still and there's still an us.
• It just couldn't ever be revenge. The game always changes.
• But the game has always been the same, it never did change. WE changed..
• You can't let me go that easy, and I can't let you go that easy. But we can't settle our minds just as not that easy. It's always different. It's always a surprise.
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Wasting a post for this new blog

You simply just can't control how and what you would feel. But you can organize what you are feeling for a certain time to hide them. For example: I can't stop be thankful to this Google Blogger for being created and simply still being continued and living, or dying. as long as it is accessible that's enough! But, I chose not to exaggerate about it and simply move on. Though this is gonna take for a while.

I never simply find it hard to move on or get over things or moments but the difference now is this is not a MOMENT.  It's a situation where everybody experiences and I have expected and wished and hoped and look up to. Yes. I'm still looking up to this. This ain't ever gonna be away unless I'm numb, which is, more on to be 'dead. I don't think writing about a moving on heals, or worse, helps.  helps. helps.